Dream a Dream for Me..

i dreamed a dream that was a dream.. it was a a dream that dreamed of me.. the dream was simple and smiling and happy.. with skies of blue all through the day.. it dreamed of me because afterall, it was my dream and it wouldnt make sense for anyone else to dream my dream.. that would be awful rabbit hole-ish, wouldnt you say?

so here was my dream in all of its glory.. all alone for what could it be.. married to what ? a nightmare? thats just another marriage.. and who needs that.. i surely dont.. so there it stood recounting the days.. days gone by.. days that started out and were so blue.. blue like the day in my dream..

my dream was all the days blurred into one.. an amalgamation of days.. dreaming of me.. a week of days.. a year of days.. dreaming of me.. mornings.. noons.. and nights.. dreaming of me.. remembering me... me in white calfskin ankle high toddler shoes.. ruffled bottom britches and blue easter dress...happy smiling.. me.. remembering me and wandering by..

me in my cotton jumper.. and perversion .. distortion.. chaos around me.. pigtails.. braids.. all i want for christmas is my two front teeth and my curly haired barbie doll.. dreaming of me.. dark hair.. tan skin painted with dotted freckles.. soft little lashes pressed together when the eyes closed to everything around me.. and there was me..

me dreaming of me.. kicking ass and taking names.. saying to hell with you all and your reckless abandon.. in one of my other dreams i realized i was on my own and dreamed i needed to take care of myself and started doing it.. well sorta.. its not always easy when theyre that big.. and sometimes even when you try.. you cant get those lashes together anymore to dream of you..
a decade of weeks of dreams.. sweet.. silent.. dont shut me in.. dont throw me down the rabbit hole and bury me alive in my dreams.. now matter how real there arent any shovels that come to fruition.. and there is only so many dreams one girl can take before she totally loses her sense of reality and a panic sets in..

a dream of dreams that set to screams of panic and chaos and squeals of fright.. it was a dream for me to have for free a dream for me to dream of me to dream this night of nights....